| Sunday, February 7th, 2010 |
| 2:38 am |
Thank you God. Really. Thank you. |
| Tuesday, January 19th, 2010 |
| 3:53 am |
Oh, life after this moment. |
| Wednesday, January 13th, 2010 |
| 9:32 pm |
Pat Robertson is dummmmb. |
| Monday, January 11th, 2010 |
| 11:01 pm |
You know, God loves you and me. |
| Thursday, January 7th, 2010 |
| 11:28 pm |
It doesn't feel like home when she's not here. Everything I feel for her is so poignant. Are we soulmates? Is it "meant to be"? I don't know. I want to believe that. I do know that losing her would devastate me. I do know that I love her, and that's sacred enough. I do know that I want to fall asleep next to her every night. It's not perfect, but what is in this life? In the end it's no fairy tale...you've gotta have a job, a place to live, food to eat...simple things but things I can't get on my own right now. I'm still such a child in many ways. I can't give her everything she needs and it tortures me...I just hope she loves me too and will be patient. I can't even remember what it was like before I met her. I have this feeling in me, it's almost like a physical illness, like if I don't feel her warmth I'm just going to fade away, and when I'm holding her I'm holding everything I ever wanted. I've been waiting my whole life for this. Only fools rush in, I know, but why love halfway? I've done a lot of things halfway in this life, I won't allow myself to love with less than all of my heart. |
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| Saturday, December 26th, 2009 |
| 3:52 am |
What's cooler than ninjas? Of course--dragons. |
| Thursday, December 24th, 2009 |
| 7:32 pm |
I would just like to announce to the internet that last night my girlfriend read aloud to me the first five chapters of the book "The Giver" and it was awesome. I love her. Happy merry Christmas everyone. |
| Sunday, December 20th, 2009 |
| 3:18 pm |
I was just thinking about how I was kind of tiring of the frequent use of the word "epic" and then I went to Drudgereport and that was the headline. Kind of funny, I guess. I want to win the lottery and open a weird store selling weird stuff at weird hours. Yeah. |
| Thursday, December 17th, 2009 |
| 5:36 pm |
The sublime illumination of the deep unseen. |
| Monday, December 14th, 2009 |
| 4:06 pm |
I don't really even know what to say, except, for all the crap in life, there are such things as passion, love, serenity, and sometimes they all get wrapped up together into one altogether transcendental experience. I think sometimes we get so far away from such an experience that we can kind of forget it exists. That's why I try to put it it into words, I guess, as inarticulate and inadequate as language is to describe such things--I just need a reminder, a monument to remember them by. No matter how I feel a month from now, or even tomorrow, right now I feel this--peace, contentment, and it is real, however fleeting. Last night Stephanie and I walked around my neighborhood. It was "Night of the Luminaries", which for those who don't know means that everyone in the neighborhood sets little bags of sand with candles in them out on the sidewalk in front of their house. It was kind of late and everyone always leaves the luminary candles burning through the night, so we decided to burn some of the bags as we walked. It was way more fun than it sounds. I reached down and burned one and then noticed someone nearby getting into their car. They had seen me do it, so we ran away. Almost to my house, Stephanie said "They're coming this way!" So I leapt rather epicly into some bushes. It was awesome and also hilarious, because no one was coming, and I think Steph might have just been messing with me. We had a good laugh, and I also proved my ninja skills. We also played foosball yesterday and I beat her by one point. It was a pretty intense game. All in all, a very wonderful day. |
| Monday, November 30th, 2009 |
| 1:32 pm |
What a waste of an hour. Ghhhhhh.... |
| Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 |
| 4:24 am |
esoterisism
Third time's the charm. God, you are funny. I need a job. And a house. Please? Or maybe just the revolution. No more vacuuming. Oh yes...this generation has the answer...sure. lol l Z zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing. |
| Friday, November 20th, 2009 |
| 4:12 pm |
comments on the meta narrative
Natural, Unnatural, Supernatural. Where are the lines dividing these words? Yet they are there. It is all such a blur to us. Guessing games. Blind leading blind through the darkness. Human condition. Nevertheless, continue to seek what is good. Whence came creation? There was neither aught nor naught, nor air, nor sky beyond. What covered all? Where rested all? In watery gulf profound? Nor death was then, nor deathlessness, nor change of night and day. The One breathed calmly, self-sustained; nought else beyond it lay. "Gloom, hid in gloom, existed first—one sea, eluding view. That One, a void in chaos wrapt, by inward fervour grew. Within it first arose desire, the primal germ of mind, Which nothing with existence links, as sages searching find. "The kindling ray that shot across the dark and drear abyss— Was it beneath? or high aloft? What bard can answer this? There fecundating powers were found, and mighty forces strove— A self-supporting mass beneath, and energy above. "Who knows, who ever told, from whence this vast creation rose? No gods had then been born—who then can e’er the truth disclose? Whence sprang this world, and whether framed by hand divine or no— Its lord in heaven alone can tell, if even he can show." |
| Wednesday, November 18th, 2009 |
| 2:19 pm |
I'm feeling very lazy today. I want to just lay down and watch TV or read a book. Mmmmmm hmmm. |
| Monday, November 16th, 2009 |
| 3:33 pm |
I'm returning to school this Spring. I'm not gonna give up! |
| Sunday, November 15th, 2009 |
| 12:37 am |
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| Sunday, November 8th, 2009 |
| 1:03 am |
The straw that broke the camel's back |
| Thursday, November 5th, 2009 |
| 5:20 pm |
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| Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 |
| 8:10 am |
My left bicep is twitching like crazy. I do not know why. |
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